I dont want to cry....yet..

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
Peace be upon the Prophet, Muhammad PBUH..
I am proud to become a muslim, and I miss the leadership of RasulAllah, even though I have never even see Him..
May Allah shower me, people I love and the people who love me with hidayah and his blessing..

Allah is enough for me, and there is no one except Allah in my heart..


Many things happen to me since I came here. A lot of things that are unpredictable, back in Kuching, or my secondary school even, I seem to be very good in taking care of myself. I was cautious and everything went just fine.. Alhamdulillah!

Its when I came here, things seem to fall apart. I grow reckless and somehow vulnerable..

before I mourn about what came to me, I should first say Alhamdulillah.. I am thankful to Allah for giving me everything that I need and has been so kind and merciful to me in this life..

Alhamdulillah, for the loving families and friends..
Alhamdulillah for the gift of the 5 senses..

Thank you Allah, for everything, I am most richly blessed..

Done let me stray from your path ya Allah, for I better die with you than live happily without you..

I sprained my ankle last night..
just before that scene happen, I did not even realize how meaningful is my foot to me, because it has been used like forever, and other people have the same thing as I have, sometime I forget to say Alhamdulillah..

It is no big deal.. really, I just sprain my ankle and that is NO BIG DEAL after all..

I have my housemates with me, they are all caring and kind..
Su, Ja, Ati, Fatin..

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Now, its hard to move, I felt like a cripple.. Every way I go, I need an assistance, and its quite troublesome for me.. for others too, I suppose..

I have been like a burden to my housemates, this is not the first time,.. I had chicken pox before, and that was for two weeks..my housemates have to sent me food and keep themselves away from me..

now, another thing happen..

when I come to think about it..

WHAT GOOD THAT THESE THINGS BRING TO ME????

But, I cant, even thought of that kind of thinking..

for, if I am grateful, Allah will add His blessing and if I am not, hell fire is really painful..




then, its all come to a conclusion..

"sakit yang ku rasa, biar jadi penawar dosaku"

Sungguh, tak layak ke syurgaMu, tapi tak sanggup ke nerakaMu..
pimpin langkahku Tuhan.. T_T