semoga dipermudahkan..

by the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..


I am sitting here in my room at 1.15..
waiting for the bus to christchurch at.. 2.00..


so, before I leave, I just want to share something:)


It is not easy to stay strong in whatever it is we believe until we really really know, understand, see and accept the principles underpinning of beliefs..
maybe, some of us. after all these while have been believing that, the moon is round but we never find way why is it so..or we never try to discover ourselves, is the moon really really round??


until one time, one person come to us and say,..
"u know, the moon is not round, it has some hole on it and it can change it shape over time"


if we dont have enough knowledge of moon, our faith on the fact about moon will be challenged and we might just simply accept the fact other people offer and leave our faith behind..


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same goes to believing and understanding Islam. It is not just about 5 times prayer a day or fasting, not allowed to eat pork, polygamy.. etc, etc..


it is way broader.. there are still a lot to discover, there are so many beatiful things about Islam that is yet to be unveil by each and every muslim. If we see scarf as an oppression, try to close your eyes and open it to see from another perspective, there you will see, freedom and modesty..


before we start to cast our stone to something, try to learn and understand it first.. lets try our very best for the deen. nothing is certain in life except death.. insyaAllah.. we will find our way..


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May Allah hold our heart to always be on the right path..
uhibbukunna fillah..


^-^v

tak ingin berpaling..

dengan nama Allah, yang maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang..


berakhir sudah daurah di timaru..
insyaAllah, besok bergerak ke mukhaiyam di Auckland..


ada satu anologi yg nak di share..

kalau sorang raja tu, memerintah sesuatu negara.. sudah pasti ada peraturan yang dia akan buat dan perintahkan orang untuk laksanakan, kan?
dan jika rakyatnya laksanakan perintah itu, dia syg kan? dan kalau ada rkyat yang bantu dia melaksanakn perintah itu, macam kerah org, ingatkan org utk laksanakan perintah raja dan tegah org dari melakukan perkara yg di larang oleh raja.. mesti raja bagi ganjaran kan? mesti raja angkat martabat orang tu kan?

ok..macamana kalau, raja perintahkan rakyat buat sst perkara untuk kebaikan rakyat, ada rakyat xbuat, tapi, rakyat yg x buat ni, xggu pun org lain.. adakah raja akan hukum mereka?






fikir...

fikir....

fikir....


iya jawapannya.. kenapa tidak kan? sedangkan raja dah buat itu untuk kebaikan, kenapa kena langgar..lagipun sang raja kan raja..kenalah patuh dengan raja.. raja lebih tahu pasal hal ehwal negara...

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faham x anologi ni?
insyaAllah..
ini cuma raja, apatah lagi Allah kan, tuhan yang menciptakan langit dan bumi ni, kenapa kena ada rasa sangsi dengan sst perkara bila sudah jelas Allah mensyariatkannya kepada manusia.. hebat sgt kah kita? kita ingat idea kita lagi baek ka?

astaghfirullah...astaghfirullah..astaghfirullah..

sebenarnya, post ni..nak menjawab soalan seorang sahabat ttg beza org islam dan bukan islam..

dalam situasi, muslim biasa dan bukan muslim tapi baik.. kira lebih baik dari muslim yg baik tu..

soalnya lagi..org bukan islam xdpt masuk syurga ka..

jum la kita renung anologi di atas.. kita tumpang bumi Allah ni, ada syariat yg perlu di patuhi..sunnatullah yg perlu di selami.. dan ada "password" yg perlu kita lafaz agar smua usaha dan amalan kita tu valid di hadapan Allah..


apa passwordnya?

"aku naik saksi, bahawa tiada tuhan yang di sembah melainkan Allah, dan aku naik saksi bahawa nabi Muhammad itu pesuruh Allah"



Esakan pemilik bumi, Esa kan pemilik diri, ruh dan jasadmu, akui ke agungan Nya, fahami akidah ttgNya.. barulah Dia akan memberi ganjaran syurgaNya.. InsyaAllah,

see the point?

Terima... Faham... Amal...


^-^

saya, mahu faham dalam agama.
tuntun langkahku tuhan..

Ya Allah, redhai ketulusan hati......

By the name of Allah, The most Gracious and the most merciful..
Peace be upon Muhammad PBUH the messenger, His families and friends..

I am going to be away for quite a long time, starting tomorrow (23rd June until 5th July). So, before I go to sleep tonight, I decided to write something.

Alhamdulillah, banyak perkara yang di pelajari sejak cuti ini bermula. Mula-mula terasa kosong, sebab habiskan masa tengok muvi, outing, main monopoly dan taboo. Tapi, hikmahnya ialah, Allah bagi pengisian yang best pada minggu kedua cuti dan InsyaAllah, mahu lagi mencari pengisian jiwa untuk minggu-minggu seterusnya.

Allah yang pegang hati ini, jika DIA mahu, sekelip mata sahaja Dia boleh membolak balikkan hati ini, saya harap, Allah tsabatkan hati ini, ke arah ini, dan di jalan Nya.. sebab saya tahu, more than anyone else..

saya tak layak masuk syurga, tapi saya tak sanggup masuk neraka..
Jadi, saya mahukan kefahaman dalam Islam, kerana..

"barangsiapa yang Allah mahukan kebaikan padaNya, Dia berikan kefahaman dalam beragama"

Dan, saya mahukan kefahaman itu. sebab saya mahu, Allah memberikan kebaikan pada saya. tapi, kebaikan tersebut, tak akan datang bergolek, kena cari dan usaha untuk dapatkan. Tambahan pula, nanti saya akan menjadi seorang cikgu. dan saya mahu menjadi murabbi yang effektif. InsyaAllah!

Bumi ini milik Allah, Dia wariskan kepada sesiapa yang Dia kehendaki. Dan jika dia menolong kita, sudah pasti tiada siapa dapat mengalahkan kita. Cuma, mungkin masih belum masa lagi bagi umat Islam kembali ke puncak. It is earned through perseverance.

Saya sangat suka surah Saff..

surah-surah lain dalam al-quran pun best..suma nya ayat2 cinta Allah jugak, penawar hati bagi hamba-hambaNya yang merinduiNya..

saya suka surah Saff, sebab.. dalamnya Allah berbicara tentang..

"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, mengapa kamu katakan sesuatu yg tidak kamu perbuat"
"Allah menyukai mereka yang berjuang di jalan Allah secara berbaris (kumpulan)"
"urus niaga yang PALING menguntungkan"


dah jatuh cinta dengan surah ini :)

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Bunga 1


Di taman yang di lawati hari ini, ada bunga ini. warnanya hijau dan tangkainya berduri. kelopaknya seperti mawar, tapi ianya lutsinar. harumnya semerbak dan bunga ini yang paling "outstanding" antara semuya bunga2..

Bunga ini saya beri nama, bunga hubbuddin~ maksudnya..bunga cintakan agama..

dalam taman ilmu ini, saya melihat kepentingan yang sangat tinggi untuk kita kenal sejarah dan cintakan agama ini,

salah satu sebab yang jelas: "agama di sisi Allah itu, adalah agama Islam"

lagi, rasul SAW sudah berpesan, kita ni hanya musafir di dunia. agama itu lah bekal kita, pengikat akidah dan cara hidup kita. dari agama kita kenal diri, kita beri warna dan kerekter pada diri... Bila kita sudah kenal pada diri, barulah kita kenal pada tuhan..

ingat..
"dunia itu penjara bagi orang mukmin, dan syurga bagi orang kafir"

bunga hubbuddin ni sangat mekar dalam taman tersebut, tapi untuk memetik dan menyimpannya dalam pasu untuk di letakkan dalam bilik mungkin susah, sebab ia akan layu. maksudnya, kalau rindu dengan hubbuddin, kena masuk taman tu.. :)

~getting tired..

o0...saya nak doakan, kawan-kawan saya sentiasa gembira, dan di hilangkn rasa sedih dalam hati. smoga masalah kawan-kawan saya di hilangkan dan mereka di beri ketenangan. Saya sayang kawan-kawan saya.. harap smuanya baik-baik saja

dan... InsyaAllah, saya maafkan smua orang yg pernha buat salah kat saya, dan saya mahu minx maaf kat suma orang atas salah dan silap saya..

lagi... sejak akhir2 ini, simtom rindu dan homesick semakin berleluasa dalam hati ini, kalau boleh saya mahu balik hujung tahun ini! insyaAllah..

Last... tolong ingatkan saya, jika saya terlupakan tuhan, dalam kelapangan dan kesibukan..


tuntun langkahku tuhan..

Hari ini, saya jumpa bunga..:)

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
peace be upon Muhammad PBUH the messenger, His families and friends..

What was the topic again? ahha..jumpa bunga ^-^

Hari ini, saya masuk satu taman, taman tersebut sangat indah, setiap hembusan nafas di taman tersebut, terasa memberi kebahagiaan, dan setiap denyut nadi memberi ketenangan..

illustrasi penulis semata-mata

firman Allah dalam surah Al-Asr:

"demi masa, sesungguhnya manusia berada dalam kerugian, kecuali mereka yang beriman dan beramal soleh, yang berpesan-pesan ke arah kebenaran dan berpesan-pesan ke arah kesabaran"

Kalau boleh, nak selalu berada di taman itu, dan sentiasa merindui suasana di taman itu. bila berada di taman itu, terasa hampir dengan firman Allah di atas. Kenapa? sebab dalam hidup ini, kita berdepan dengan sangat banyak pilihan, kalau perempuan kena decide, nak masak apa, nak pakai tudung apa, nak guna beg mana, dan maca-macam lagi. dan salah satu pilihan yang perlu di buat tersebut adalah, pilihan untuk spent masa kita untuk apa..

what 2 hours mean to me? jika saya di beri 2 jam, saya berhadapan dengan pelbagai pilihan; tengok tb, tido, makan, tengok movie, online facebook, blogging, dan macam-macam lagi..

Alhamdulillah, hari ini, Allah bagi saya kekuatan, kesempatan dan peluang untuk spend my 2 hours dalam taman tersebut..

saya sangat berharap, kawan-kawan yang lain dapat merasa berada di taman tersebut supaya saya dapat bersama-sama berkongsi rasa.

mahu tahu apa taman itu? mesti dah boleh teka dari awal kan? :)

taman syurga..raudhatul jannah~

kan, taman ilmu tu, adalah salah satu daripada taman-taman syurga.. bukanlah saya tak pernah berada di taman ilmu sebelum ini. tapi taman yang saya jumpa hari ini, sangat istimewa.. dan, ada bunga di dalamnya.. kiranya, memberi kesan la ke dalam hati ini.. menyentuh hati, jauh di lubuk paling dalam (ewah2..)

I pray to Allah, to grant my daily life with the feelings of wanting and needs of being in his raudhatul-jannah.

semoga titisan rindu ini, selalu ada dalam hati..

InsyaAllah, di entry seterusnya, saya ceritakan bunga-bunga apa yang ada dalam taman tersebut..

besok, pegi Timaru, insyaAllah.. doakanlah kami selamat dalam perjalanan pergi dan balik..

saya,
tak layak masuk syurga,
tapi, tak sanggup masuk neraka,
pimpin langkahku tuhan..

Selamat hari bapa^_^

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
peace be upon Muhammad the messenger, his families and friends..


Saya ingin sekali mendidekasikan ucapan selamat hari bapa kepada bapa yang sangat sangat saya sayangi, Encik oyot Bin Arin..

beralamat,
Kg. suang Punggor,
P/s 250 89158
Kota Belud
Sabah

terima kasih saya ucapkan kepada bapa yang sentiasa menjadi pemberi peringatan, pemberi kekuatan, dan pemberi semangat untuk terus melangkah walau dalam apa juga keadaan..

terima kasih, kerana sentiasa tenang dan sabar dalam melayan keranah anak-anakmu..

Ya Allah, berilah kekuatan kepada bapaku, untuk memimpin keluarga kami ke arah jalan yang engkau redhai selalu..
berilah dia cintaMu, berilah dia kasih sayngMu, berilah dia kelapangan dan ketenangan dalam apa juga yang dia lakukan..

Ya Allah, hadirkan lah hasanah dalam hatinya,
tanamkanlah bahagia dalam jiwanya, ampunilah dosa-dosanya,
hapuslah air mata dan kesedihan dari dirinya..

Ya Allah, kurniakan lah syurga pada ibu bapaku,
bahagiakn lah kami di alam dunia, temukan lah semula di syurga sana..
ameen ya rob..

Ya Allah,
perkenankanlah permintaan ini..

kurang yang perlu di tambah..

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
Peace be upon Muhammad the messenger, his families and friends..


The main point of this entry would be, The 3 deadly weaknesses of Muslims..

1. They fail to learn from the past (their own history)
2. They dont have a proper and effective planning
3. Laziness!

In my previous posts, I have entered the 3 strength of Muslim, now let us revise what are they?

1. Akidah
2. Ukhuwah
3. Maal


Notice something??
What??

There are a very clear contradiction from the strength and weakness of muslims. Long story short, The weakness is a total opposite of the strength and it seems that the weakness is actually manipulated from the strength!

Islam comes to the earth as "ghuraba" alien @ different @ special. And it is also aprt of the sunnatullah that Islam will also return to Allah as "ghuraba". further in the hadith, it is said that those who are "ghuraba" are very lucky..

Well, maybe some of us have heard of this hadith. I dont really know how to explain it but insyaAllah, later.

Back to the weaknesses of muslims


Akidah VS failure to learn from the past

what connection does our aqidah has with what "we" are in the past?

Yup, Aqidah is what we believe and what we put a high trust upon. It is based on our aqidah that we direct our daily life and routine. In Islam, our akidah is to prioritize Allah which clearly yield benefits to human being. It is through Akidah that all of us are bind together. What is also important to note is the aqidah about "sunnatullah". It is already mentioned in the Koran that "sunnatullah" or God's planning will recur and hence we need to take "ibrah" or lesson from it.

Our weakness comes when we, FAIL to address, to spent time to learn and to think about what has happened to the Deen in the past. What are they in the past for us to learn? plenty..

1. The rising and falling factors of Islamic legacy
2. The ruling of Khalifah
3. The strength and relationship among the mujahid and ulamak
4. The roles of every muslim

And many others..

FRIENDS, IT IS WE WHO NEED ISLAM, ISLAM DOES NOT NEED US!!
Hence, when we are understand the fact that we need Islam, we have to preserve it and learn a lot about it. We gained our strength from our past. We have once hold the civilization. Islam has left a very significant change in the history and many fields as well.

WHY WE NEED ISLAM, and ISLAM DOES NOT NEED US..

tracing back to the time of the demise of Abasiyyah legacy. They were at that time on the peak of achievement, if I can say it to be that way. They have baitul hikam, they have a very good ruling system, as well, they have an excellent statistic system. Humans are fallible, and sunnatullah will take its role as well. They were defeated by the Monggols army. That was because, they were far away from Islam. During the 1st syawal on the year they were defeated, due to the high influence of hedonism to Muslims at that time, they forgot to perform eidulfitri prayer and they have to replace or qadha it on maghrib..

LETS NOT REPEAT THIS>> but again, HEDONISM among muslims are very obvious nowadays!

4f
Food
Fun
Festival
Fashion

3s
Sex
Social
S?? (lupa plak..huhu)

It is a thing to ponder~
After that, start the rise of Uthmaniyyah legacy who has bring back Islam, it is by Allah means. That He can select anyone that he wants to bring his religion back to the peak.. Its either we take it, or we leave it....

Ukhuwah VS effective planning


Then again, we are lack of the interconnection among the muslims countries...
One by one, has been separated..

"di mana tanda setia saudara"

Ok, lets just look at the smaller part. The ukhuwah between us in our class, in our flats, in our batch. As a muslim.

There are still backstabbing..
Badmouthing other sisters or brothers..

We are weak in planning? why planning? not performing?

Actually, people don't PLAN to FAIL, but they FAIL to PLAN..
We want to change and improve ummah, but we don't know where to start..
True, there has been a lot of plannings, but weak implementation to put the planning into reality is also one of the things that we have to consider..

Dream Big! But Start with small pace..
We Dream to climb the highest peak of Everest, but we start with the very first step at the bottom of the mountain..

Maal VS laziness

How to gain wealth? perseverance, hardworking, wisdom..
and what is our weakness? we are so lazy..

we procrastinate! Let just first look at our assignment, we tend to delay..
we are lazy to learn more about Islam, about sunnatullah.. education, science, math, language are also part of the sunnatullah.. moreover, seeking knowledge is compulsory for every muslim..

Lets, start.. Lets dont delay..
Lets, together..Lets!

Haiya Alal falah..
marilah menuju kejayaan..
Lets move towards the victory..

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saya gembira hari ini, Alhamdulillah.. Belajar banyak resipi.. mee kari, muffin, dan nasi ayam..
balik nanti nak masak byk3..
insyaAllah..

saya rindu family saya, tym masak tadi, tiba2 terasa syahdu..nak nangis2 plak kan, tapi, saya cuba mengumpul sisa-sisa kekuatan..
kerana saya sedar..

"di bahu ini, ada tanggungjawab yang perlu di galas"

Bantu aku tuhan..

Aku,
Yang tak layak masuk syurga, tapi xsanggup masuk neraka..
Pimpin langkahku Tuhan..

yang tak terungkap_*sigh*

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
Peace be upon Muhammad the messenger, his families and friends..



Larnach castle

"kepayahan itu hadiah dari Allah, walaupun tak semanis nikmatNya, tetap juga itu tanda kasih dan cintaNya, bagi hati-hati yang mahu melihat dari sudut lemahnya seorang hamba"

"Sedangkan Nabi Muhammad SAW yang maksum dan mulia tu pun tetap ada orang yang tidak menyukai dan membenci, apatah lagi kita yang banyak kelemahan, kekurangan dan kekhilafan ni" _Kak Fadhi,2010_


Kita kadang-kadang bermimpi mahu menawan gunung dan meredah samudera luas, tapi kemahiran dan peralatan tidak mencukupi untuk melakukan perkara sedemikian. Kadang-kadang kita tenggelam dalam angan-angan dan hanyut dalam cita-cita yang menggunung tanpa ada usaha yang pasti.

"kalau kail panjang sejengkal, janganlah lautan hendak di duga"


On our way to Otago peninsular this afternoon, my mind travels far away to my home, far far away in Kota Belud. I really miss my family and for the countless time, I feel like wanting to go home! I really want to go home!

Maybe next year, InsyaAllah..

The first semester has been good (that's just how it can be explained)

Now, we are looking forward for the next semester,
I think everyone has been doing well! Congratulation to all my friends.. Maybe staying apart from families make us more Independence and mature in making an option.

*sigh*

*sigh*

*sigh*

mungkin sudah menipu diri..
mungkin juga sudah di tipu..

*siapalah aku didepan tuhanku......


Aku tak layak kesyurgaMu, tapi tak sanggup kenerakaMu..
Pimpin langkahku tuhan..

rindu itu kekuatan..:)

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..


I miss the leadership of RasulAllah,


Peace be upon Muhammad the messenger, his family and friends..


This post will be really3 short..(blogging while listening to Robitah hati song)

"hidupkan dengan makrifatMu, matikan dengan syahid dijalanMu"

"Lapangkanlah dada kami, dengan kurnia iman"

saya selalu rindu,
rindu pada mak, bapa,
rindu dengan abang,
rindu ngan diba,
rindu ngan apik dan ita,
rindu ngan kakak2..
rindu ngan kawan2..
rindu ngan "buku biru"
rindu ngan bilik,
Saya rindu dhuha,
saya rindu ma'thurat,
saya rindu alunan al-quran,
saya rindu pada tangis,
saya rindu pada perlu,
saya rindu pada sedih,
saya rindu pada lemah,
saya rindu pada sempit,
saya rindu pada lapang,

saya tidak tahu, bila rindu ini akan terubat,
dan dalam rindu ini, saya cuba mencari kekuatan,

"lemah dan tidak berdaya, di sisiMu"

siapalah aku di depan tuhanku..

post kali ini, is more like putting patches of thought into words.. they dont really have connection towards each other. So, I suppose that, they might can just give their meaning denotatively or connotatively..

kata orang, silence can be so loud..

kata saya, kalau silence pon dah bley jadi loud, apatah lagi bila berkata2...

kata Rosul, "katakanlah yang baik, atau pun diam"

pilih2..yang mana baik, kita buat, yang tak baik kita jangan buat..

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kenapa susah nak bina kekuatan? dalam sempit misalnya, kekuatan tidak datang bergolek, ianya perlu di cari. macam cari pasangan hidup la.. pasangan hidup tak kan datang bergolek-golek dekat kita, kita pun kena cari. Walaupun Allah dah sebut, pada setiap orang itu, ada jodohnya masing2..

"kekuatan kena cari, ok?"

so, bila kita lemah, itulah sebenarnya kekuatan..

paham x??

maybe terlalu abstrak untuk dipahami, tapi cukuplah dikatakan..

kita selalu minx kekuatan dengan Allah, kekuatan untuk itu, untuk ini, tapi sebenarnya, kekuatan itu Allah tidak hadirkan dengan anugerah semata-mata (tanpa perlu berkerja keras) tapi it is earn through perseverance.. kalau kita lemah, kekuatan adalah apabila kita bley handle rasa lemah tu..

sebab itu perlu lemah, through weakness, we gain our strength..

Allah is enough for me,

Jangan biar aku jauh..

aku dekat, KAU dekat..

sungguh,
sungguh,

aku tak layak ke syurgaMu,
tapi tak sanggup ke nerakaMu,

Pimpin langkahku tuhan..

kekuatan yang lama telah terkubur~

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
peace be upon Muhammad, the prophet, his families and friends..

alhamdulillahillazi ahyana, ba'da ma, amatana wa ilaihinnusyur~

I woke up this morning trying to feel my foot, I move it round and I tried to lift it, I can still feel the sore, but its not as painful as yesterday.. I sat, and I started to stand up using both legs. I start my first step. Though the pain is not obvious anymore, but it still ache like there is a broken pieces of glasses piercing my foot. I gave up, maybe tomorrow.. This pain, by Allah's will.. will vanish. InsyaAllah!

Yesterday, our house was cheered up by the long-awaited visitor, Kak Fadhi from Auckland. We had a great lunch and a monopoly game(which apparently won by me..huhu, if ja read this, she might get angry! because she also stands the chance as the winner)

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kak fadhi said, the Ummah has 3 main strength, it is this three strength that the Islam's enemy are really afraid of and they will try their best to destroy it. The three main strength are;

1. Akidah (faith and believe)
2. Ukhuwah (Brotherhood,(sisterhood?)and strong bond)
3. Maal (Materials or wealth)

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Akidah

Really, the most important things that bind all the muslims together are the akidah. our faith and believe of Allah as the only God and Muhammad PBUH is his messenger is the strongest bind that hold our soul together. It is through the fear of Allah and love of Rasul that we stand together as a strong Ummah. Just like what happen in Badar war, 313 muslims army were able to defeat the thousands of kuffar army. It is because of strong faith that Allah gives His mercy, love, and help to lift the Mukmins status among other humans.

Ukhuwah

Once, my lecturer back in Kuching asked my friends about the dispute in ghazza.

Lecturer: Why do you have to be so overreacting? Issue in Ghazza is not about religion, it is about race, that the Jews want to confiscate their land that they claim to be theirs. It does not have anything to do with faith at all!

True, maybe that is how my lecturer, a christian priest perceive the root of the problems. My dear sisters and brothers, let us look at one anology..
say, you have a family, and your brother has a problem with another people, the problem does not have anything to do with family matter, it is just another problem such as money he owes. Will you not be concern? since you brother is the part of the family. Will you not have the wants to help? of course you will, right? you want to help because your brother is no other but your family.

same goes to the issue of Ghazza, regardless what they say about the problem does not have anything to do with Islam (when it actually has). We feel for our "family" we shared the same akiidah, and the ukhuwwah bind us together. Muslims in Ghazza are part of the Islamic families. there are our brothers and sisters!

That is why, we have to try as best as we can to help them, 3 steps to start of with..
membenci, mengecam, memulau..
to hate the false action, to not take an example from the false action, and to keep self away from the false action..

Maal

Money, is not neglected. Still, Islam is about peace. A lot, has been done in islamic history about collecting materials and wealth for the benifits of ummah. Saidina Uthman, the richest Khalifah, He is the one who will donate his wealth for the Ummah. Baitul maal for zakat and to help the ummah. Baitul Hikmah, the translation of knowledge to nourish the Ummah's soul.

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"adakah kau lupa, kita pernah berjaya?
adakah kau lupa kita pernah berkuasa?
memayungi 2 pertiga dunia,
merentas benua,
melayari samudera,
keimanan jua ketakwaan
rahsia mereka, capai kejayaan..

menyimpulkan suara..

without the 3 main strength, it is impossible for ummah to be at the top again. so, there we will be.. "buih-buih di lautan"

maybe we cant change the ummah, maybe it will be hard for ummah to stand again, maybe ummah cant her the voice, maybe ummah has forgotten..

but, let us make the change in ourself first, maybe we cant change the whole ummah, but let start with "I" before we go to the "WE"..

"sampaikanlah dariku, walau cuma satu ayat" Rasul PBUH.

Sungguh, tak layak ke syurgaMu, tapi tak sanggup ke nerakaMu.
Pimpin langkahku tuhan..

I dont want to cry....yet..

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
Peace be upon the Prophet, Muhammad PBUH..
I am proud to become a muslim, and I miss the leadership of RasulAllah, even though I have never even see Him..
May Allah shower me, people I love and the people who love me with hidayah and his blessing..

Allah is enough for me, and there is no one except Allah in my heart..


Many things happen to me since I came here. A lot of things that are unpredictable, back in Kuching, or my secondary school even, I seem to be very good in taking care of myself. I was cautious and everything went just fine.. Alhamdulillah!

Its when I came here, things seem to fall apart. I grow reckless and somehow vulnerable..

before I mourn about what came to me, I should first say Alhamdulillah.. I am thankful to Allah for giving me everything that I need and has been so kind and merciful to me in this life..

Alhamdulillah, for the loving families and friends..
Alhamdulillah for the gift of the 5 senses..

Thank you Allah, for everything, I am most richly blessed..

Done let me stray from your path ya Allah, for I better die with you than live happily without you..

I sprained my ankle last night..
just before that scene happen, I did not even realize how meaningful is my foot to me, because it has been used like forever, and other people have the same thing as I have, sometime I forget to say Alhamdulillah..

It is no big deal.. really, I just sprain my ankle and that is NO BIG DEAL after all..

I have my housemates with me, they are all caring and kind..
Su, Ja, Ati, Fatin..

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Now, its hard to move, I felt like a cripple.. Every way I go, I need an assistance, and its quite troublesome for me.. for others too, I suppose..

I have been like a burden to my housemates, this is not the first time,.. I had chicken pox before, and that was for two weeks..my housemates have to sent me food and keep themselves away from me..

now, another thing happen..

when I come to think about it..

WHAT GOOD THAT THESE THINGS BRING TO ME????

But, I cant, even thought of that kind of thinking..

for, if I am grateful, Allah will add His blessing and if I am not, hell fire is really painful..




then, its all come to a conclusion..

"sakit yang ku rasa, biar jadi penawar dosaku"

Sungguh, tak layak ke syurgaMu, tapi tak sanggup ke nerakaMu..
pimpin langkahku Tuhan.. T_T

A special dedication..

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..

this post is a special dedication to the people who have brought a lot of meaning to my life..

Ma, Pa..

Ya Allah, ampunilah dosaku, dan dosa kedua ibu bapaku, tenangkanlah hati mereka, lapangkan lah dada mereka, permudahkanlah urusan mereka, perkenankanlah permintaan mereka, gembirakanlah mereka selalu, ya Allah..limpahi la rahmat, hidayah dan kasih sayangmu ke atas kedua ibu bapaku, kurniakanlah mereka syurga sebagai ganjaran kasih sayang yang telah mereka berikan kepada kami ya Allah..

Abg2, dan Adik2 ku..

I love you all.. and I always miss the memories that we shared together eversince we were little.. I always remember how Abg Kudin took care of us on the absence of Pa and Ma to work.. I always follow you to your friends' house, playing marbles and you never get angry..

Diba..I always remember we played game at the living room even Ma get angry when we messed the house up..Dik, all the best in your life, I know u can always do better than me..I believe in you!

Apik.. I dont realize how much you have grown up, you are a man now. The last time I saw you, you were taller than me already.. all the best dik, I love you so much..

Dearie Masyitah.. I love you so much, and I miss you so much, your laughter and jokes, you are the apple of my eyes dik, you always complain that you get number two all the time, never mind dik, for me..you are always number one!.,.hope you will grow up to become a great muslimah! insyaAllah..

Its my first day in this 20th age..

ya Allah, semoga dengan bertambahnya umurku,
makin hampir aku padamu..
jangan biar aku jauh darimu ya Allah..

ampunilah dosa2 ku yang silam..
hanya padamu aku berserah..
dan hanya padamu aku bergantung harap..

kasihanilah aku, insan-insan yang ku kasihi, dan insan2 yang mengasihiku..

sungguh, tak layak ke syurgaMu, tapi, tak sanggup ke nerakaMu..

I dont except you to understand..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

I never have any expectation towards you,
so, I wasnt suprise that you dont actually understand..

I forgive you..
because Allah asks me so..
If it is not because of Allah,
I might have get really really upset and angry..

life is temporary anyway..

Hasbi rabbi, jallallah..

Tuhan, kuatkan aku, lindungiku dari putus asa..
jika ku harus mati, pertemukan aku denganmu..

kuatkan aku..
kuatkan aku..
kuatkan aku..

Bantu aku Tuhan..

maafkan aku ummah...

Di medan ini, suara ku mungkin tidak akan di dengari, tenggelam dalm kabut ribut perbalahan.
Di saat ini, aku juga tidak mungkin kelihatan, justeru hilang dalam kabus kelemahan dan kekhilafan.
Maafkan aku ummah. Tak bisa bersamamu saat kau memanggil namaku dengan seruan.
Maafkan aku ummah. Kerana tak kuat menyumbang, meringankan bebanmu..
Maafkan aku ummah, kerana hanya doa yang bisa ku panjatkan, ku iring keyakinan bahawa Allah bersama kita, selagi mana kita ampuh membela agamaNya..
Bicara Murabbi unggul kita; umat Islam di akhir zaman ini jumlahnya ramai, tapi mereka ibarat buih-buih di lautan..
Itu kita ummah. Di ciptakan dalam hati penyakit cintakan dunia dan takutkan kematian. Sedangkan dunia ini sementara sifatnya. Dan mati itu saat pertemuan dengan pencipta. Saat kembali pada tempat asal ruh kita.
Di zaman ini, Allah campakkan dalam hati musuh-musuh Islam, perasaan berani yang membuak. Tidak lagi rasa gementar. Tidak lagi rasa kasihan.
Dan kita ummah, beginilah lagaknya..
Untuk membangunkan ummah dan bersatu, satu cabaran yang harus di galas. Untuk kita mampu mengubah dan mengangkat martabat ummah, harus bermualanya dalam tarbiyah diri. Perkasakan iman, mantapkan jati diri..
Jangan kita jadi buih, datangnya tidak dikesan, perginya tidak disedari.
Ya Allah. Betapa berat ujian yang Kau turunkan kepada Ummah. Ampunilah dosa kami ya Allah. Peliharalah deen Mu ini ya Allah. Bantulah kami untuk mendepani cabaran ini Ya Allah.
Wahai Tuhan. Tanamkanlah keberanian dalam hati-hati kami ya Allah. Berikanlah kekuatan dalam hati pejuang-pejuang agamaMu ya Allah. Andai kami terkorban di jalan ini. Tempatkanlah kami dalam syurgaMu ya Allah.
Ya Allah.. selamatkanlah umat islam, di setiap masa, dan setiap ketika.
Laknat Allah ke atasmu Israel!!.
“dan kami telah tetapkan terhadap bani Israel dalam kitab itu, “kamu pasti akan berbuat kerusakan di bumi ini dua kali dan kamu pasti akan menyombongkan diri dengan kesombongan yang besar” (17:04)
Maafkan aku ummah..
Ya Rasulullah, sesungguhnya..kami merinduimu..

simply my hobby~

In the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..

another hectic days i went through. I have a lot of assignment to complete, apparently, but i made not a really good choice. I want to blog. just take me 3 minutes.

I was thinking that, true, people may not turn out the way we expect them to be. but thats perfectly normal. because, we are not born to please others. we live for ourselves, and to fullfil our responsibility as the khalif of this temporary world.

It is not easy to maintain our emotion. Even Iman has it ups and down. And the anology of Iman's shift is like the bubble in a boiling water. It as fast as that. It is Allah who hold our heart.so, we have to seek refuge under HIS love. we are nothing without HIM. what we have in this world as well, are from him.

Thank You Allah..

hasbi rabbi, jalallah, mafi Qolbi ghairullah..
Allah is enough for me, there is no one in my heart except Allah..

this is the remedy for the soul~

Bittaufiq Wannajah..
Jazakumullahu khairan kathira!