~A thought: kathirat~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~


I was sitting in the corner of the library, reading Patricia Cornwell's Body of Evidence. I am not reading it for pleasure, really! It is just because, it is one of the 6 books of reading of the The Art of Crime paper I am taking this semester. It's getting really draggy at this point, a lot of subplots are introduced. Getting tired reading between lines, I placed the book on my table and throw my sight towards the evening scenery of Albany Street.

I saw, Poppa Piza! has always been successful to tempt me to drop by..huhu.. somehow, I feel weird writing on baby blue's key pads. It must be because, it has been long since I last wrote a 1500 words essay for the assignment, better learn to get use to the key pads because I have another 2000 words assignment due on the 9th of August.

Hurm~

Lately I have been thinking a lot about death. About how temporary life is and how one cant actually predict his or her own demise. Since we cant actually predict our own death, many have developed the notion of greed and wanting-it-all in this temporary life. We fed our hunger of wealth and possessions until we forget that, one day, when the 'contract' that we signed has expired and the period that is allocated for our living has come to the end, all that we have striven for will turn into ashes. No meaning and it cant help us anymore except three things

1. faithful children
2. knowledge that is passed over
3. Jariah deeds




One will surely experienced the moment of death. the moment when the soul part from the body and ventures to the next phase of life. I was thinking, is it possible to establish a hereafter-oriented government? where life is a perfect and ideal place for everyone to plant their trees of good deeds which products will help them in akhirah.

I am thinking, is it possible to create a place which is ideal for after death life preparation. A place where everyone seeks and looking forward for akhirah, place where everyone keeps on reminding each other how life doesnt last and urge everyone to improve his or her amal for the sake of brighter life in the "future"@ afterlife.

sometimes, I get confused with myself, have I not been reminded of the life is temporary and that I shouldnt get my heart bound to it. Have I not been reminded that life is transition that I cant act as I am staying here forever. Have I not come across the verse of the Quran saying, "life is just a game and joke". Then, why is it hard to just be on track.

O0 Allah..Here I come to You,
please forgive my sins
I want to love You,
I want to abide You,
I want to know You,

O0 Allah..
Make my eyes blind towards the earthly temptation,
make my ears deaf towards the earthly goodness,
Hold my heart tight, and always remind me of akhirah..

I have been cruel to myself, from You I seek refuge, from You I seek forgiveness..

Ya rahman, ya Rahim, Ya zaljalali wal ikram~

guide my way, lead me to Your path~