One evening, in front of the clock tower~

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
Peace be upon Muhammad, His families, companions..

I miss the leadership of Rasul SAW, and I pray, that during the judgment day, I can sit together with those who have been his faithful ummah~

It was early when I woke up this morning, Alhamdulillah.. Allah still gives me chance to inhale the air and continue my pursuit of His blessings~

When I finished class this afternoon, I long for the beautiful scenery in front of the clock tower. The greenery environment, the flowing water of Leith river and the voice of the singing birds. Subhanallah..^-^




I quickly spot my favorite sanctuary, a bench next to the bridge. It is situated just behind a cherry blossom, well.. a sukara-like flower ^-^



I sat there, and start reciting ma'thurat~ it was really peaceful.. Subhanallah..

"everything on earth and sky are praising Allah" Saff:1

It is true, that when we get close to someone whose knowledge about Allah is deep, someone who always praise Allah, we will also share the serenity that the person has. Same goes to when we get close to the nature, the air, the leaves, the birds, the grass, the water.. All of them are praising Allah all the time. And getting close to the nature, brings tranquility..

When I come the part of the ma'thurat saying..

"Oo Allah, I seek refuge from you from kufr and faqr, 0o Allah, I seek refuge from you from azabil qubr"

A sudden feeling of sadness comes to me. This is because, since the beginning of the ma'thurat, I was reciting it with "na" which means us, represent the natures around me. But, when it comes the the "azabil qubr" part, it is no longer "na" it is "'a" which means I. The leaves, trees and sun are naturally Islam. They dont have any other choice than being a "good" muslim, They have in fact being loyal and faith ful to whatever it is Allah has written for them. Most importantly, they are not going to go through the "azabil qubr".

subhanallah wabihamdih..subhanallahil adziim~

It reminds me of saidina Umar al-khattab. One day, He cried and say, if he is able to chose, he prefers to be a stick, which gets old and get eaten by parasites. So that the stick is not going to be accountable for its deeds and is not going to experience the "azabil qubr".

Even Saidina Umar who has been successful in taking example of rasulullah claimed about the pain and hardship of the day of judgement and azabil qubr. What more for me, for us~

And what have I done all these while? I have not been a faithful muslims. I made a lot of mistakes. May Allah forgive and wash all my sins..

Its getting colder and the sun has slowly moves towards the west, the birds are still chirping, and the and could also see new grass are growing in between the other grass. You can tell because of the colour, they are totally different. subhanallah~

I pray that, Allah will take my life away, in a condition that my heart is full of His name and His love~

Assalamualaikum trees, leaves, birdie..

sungguh,
tak layak ke syurgaMu,
tapi tak sanggup ke nerakaMu..