It is gained through perseverance, NOT miracle~

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exhausted..my heart whispered..
I am suffocated..

When I tried to change something, for the first time, I finally realise, it is not an easy thing to do.

I tried to cover the hole that I have on this side, but other hole comes out.
I rushed to cover the new hole, but the hole that left unattended get even worst..

I go forth..
I go back..
I went to the left..
I run to the right..

Maybe, I am just not doing the right thing..
or maybe, I should stop doing this and reflect back on what I have done..
Yeah..Just maybe..

Or maybe, I should stop writing..

.....

Here I found myself..

"hatiku sekecil cawan, sesak dan menyesakkan"