rindu itu kekuatan..:)

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..


I miss the leadership of RasulAllah,


Peace be upon Muhammad the messenger, his family and friends..


This post will be really3 short..(blogging while listening to Robitah hati song)

"hidupkan dengan makrifatMu, matikan dengan syahid dijalanMu"

"Lapangkanlah dada kami, dengan kurnia iman"

saya selalu rindu,
rindu pada mak, bapa,
rindu dengan abang,
rindu ngan diba,
rindu ngan apik dan ita,
rindu ngan kakak2..
rindu ngan kawan2..
rindu ngan "buku biru"
rindu ngan bilik,
Saya rindu dhuha,
saya rindu ma'thurat,
saya rindu alunan al-quran,
saya rindu pada tangis,
saya rindu pada perlu,
saya rindu pada sedih,
saya rindu pada lemah,
saya rindu pada sempit,
saya rindu pada lapang,

saya tidak tahu, bila rindu ini akan terubat,
dan dalam rindu ini, saya cuba mencari kekuatan,

"lemah dan tidak berdaya, di sisiMu"

siapalah aku di depan tuhanku..

post kali ini, is more like putting patches of thought into words.. they dont really have connection towards each other. So, I suppose that, they might can just give their meaning denotatively or connotatively..

kata orang, silence can be so loud..

kata saya, kalau silence pon dah bley jadi loud, apatah lagi bila berkata2...

kata Rosul, "katakanlah yang baik, atau pun diam"

pilih2..yang mana baik, kita buat, yang tak baik kita jangan buat..

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kenapa susah nak bina kekuatan? dalam sempit misalnya, kekuatan tidak datang bergolek, ianya perlu di cari. macam cari pasangan hidup la.. pasangan hidup tak kan datang bergolek-golek dekat kita, kita pun kena cari. Walaupun Allah dah sebut, pada setiap orang itu, ada jodohnya masing2..

"kekuatan kena cari, ok?"

so, bila kita lemah, itulah sebenarnya kekuatan..

paham x??

maybe terlalu abstrak untuk dipahami, tapi cukuplah dikatakan..

kita selalu minx kekuatan dengan Allah, kekuatan untuk itu, untuk ini, tapi sebenarnya, kekuatan itu Allah tidak hadirkan dengan anugerah semata-mata (tanpa perlu berkerja keras) tapi it is earn through perseverance.. kalau kita lemah, kekuatan adalah apabila kita bley handle rasa lemah tu..

sebab itu perlu lemah, through weakness, we gain our strength..

Allah is enough for me,

Jangan biar aku jauh..

aku dekat, KAU dekat..

sungguh,
sungguh,

aku tak layak ke syurgaMu,
tapi tak sanggup ke nerakaMu,

Pimpin langkahku tuhan..

kekuatan yang lama telah terkubur~

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
peace be upon Muhammad, the prophet, his families and friends..

alhamdulillahillazi ahyana, ba'da ma, amatana wa ilaihinnusyur~

I woke up this morning trying to feel my foot, I move it round and I tried to lift it, I can still feel the sore, but its not as painful as yesterday.. I sat, and I started to stand up using both legs. I start my first step. Though the pain is not obvious anymore, but it still ache like there is a broken pieces of glasses piercing my foot. I gave up, maybe tomorrow.. This pain, by Allah's will.. will vanish. InsyaAllah!

Yesterday, our house was cheered up by the long-awaited visitor, Kak Fadhi from Auckland. We had a great lunch and a monopoly game(which apparently won by me..huhu, if ja read this, she might get angry! because she also stands the chance as the winner)

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kak fadhi said, the Ummah has 3 main strength, it is this three strength that the Islam's enemy are really afraid of and they will try their best to destroy it. The three main strength are;

1. Akidah (faith and believe)
2. Ukhuwah (Brotherhood,(sisterhood?)and strong bond)
3. Maal (Materials or wealth)

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Akidah

Really, the most important things that bind all the muslims together are the akidah. our faith and believe of Allah as the only God and Muhammad PBUH is his messenger is the strongest bind that hold our soul together. It is through the fear of Allah and love of Rasul that we stand together as a strong Ummah. Just like what happen in Badar war, 313 muslims army were able to defeat the thousands of kuffar army. It is because of strong faith that Allah gives His mercy, love, and help to lift the Mukmins status among other humans.

Ukhuwah

Once, my lecturer back in Kuching asked my friends about the dispute in ghazza.

Lecturer: Why do you have to be so overreacting? Issue in Ghazza is not about religion, it is about race, that the Jews want to confiscate their land that they claim to be theirs. It does not have anything to do with faith at all!

True, maybe that is how my lecturer, a christian priest perceive the root of the problems. My dear sisters and brothers, let us look at one anology..
say, you have a family, and your brother has a problem with another people, the problem does not have anything to do with family matter, it is just another problem such as money he owes. Will you not be concern? since you brother is the part of the family. Will you not have the wants to help? of course you will, right? you want to help because your brother is no other but your family.

same goes to the issue of Ghazza, regardless what they say about the problem does not have anything to do with Islam (when it actually has). We feel for our "family" we shared the same akiidah, and the ukhuwwah bind us together. Muslims in Ghazza are part of the Islamic families. there are our brothers and sisters!

That is why, we have to try as best as we can to help them, 3 steps to start of with..
membenci, mengecam, memulau..
to hate the false action, to not take an example from the false action, and to keep self away from the false action..

Maal

Money, is not neglected. Still, Islam is about peace. A lot, has been done in islamic history about collecting materials and wealth for the benifits of ummah. Saidina Uthman, the richest Khalifah, He is the one who will donate his wealth for the Ummah. Baitul maal for zakat and to help the ummah. Baitul Hikmah, the translation of knowledge to nourish the Ummah's soul.

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"adakah kau lupa, kita pernah berjaya?
adakah kau lupa kita pernah berkuasa?
memayungi 2 pertiga dunia,
merentas benua,
melayari samudera,
keimanan jua ketakwaan
rahsia mereka, capai kejayaan..

menyimpulkan suara..

without the 3 main strength, it is impossible for ummah to be at the top again. so, there we will be.. "buih-buih di lautan"

maybe we cant change the ummah, maybe it will be hard for ummah to stand again, maybe ummah cant her the voice, maybe ummah has forgotten..

but, let us make the change in ourself first, maybe we cant change the whole ummah, but let start with "I" before we go to the "WE"..

"sampaikanlah dariku, walau cuma satu ayat" Rasul PBUH.

Sungguh, tak layak ke syurgaMu, tapi tak sanggup ke nerakaMu.
Pimpin langkahku tuhan..

I dont want to cry....yet..

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..
Peace be upon the Prophet, Muhammad PBUH..
I am proud to become a muslim, and I miss the leadership of RasulAllah, even though I have never even see Him..
May Allah shower me, people I love and the people who love me with hidayah and his blessing..

Allah is enough for me, and there is no one except Allah in my heart..


Many things happen to me since I came here. A lot of things that are unpredictable, back in Kuching, or my secondary school even, I seem to be very good in taking care of myself. I was cautious and everything went just fine.. Alhamdulillah!

Its when I came here, things seem to fall apart. I grow reckless and somehow vulnerable..

before I mourn about what came to me, I should first say Alhamdulillah.. I am thankful to Allah for giving me everything that I need and has been so kind and merciful to me in this life..

Alhamdulillah, for the loving families and friends..
Alhamdulillah for the gift of the 5 senses..

Thank you Allah, for everything, I am most richly blessed..

Done let me stray from your path ya Allah, for I better die with you than live happily without you..

I sprained my ankle last night..
just before that scene happen, I did not even realize how meaningful is my foot to me, because it has been used like forever, and other people have the same thing as I have, sometime I forget to say Alhamdulillah..

It is no big deal.. really, I just sprain my ankle and that is NO BIG DEAL after all..

I have my housemates with me, they are all caring and kind..
Su, Ja, Ati, Fatin..

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Now, its hard to move, I felt like a cripple.. Every way I go, I need an assistance, and its quite troublesome for me.. for others too, I suppose..

I have been like a burden to my housemates, this is not the first time,.. I had chicken pox before, and that was for two weeks..my housemates have to sent me food and keep themselves away from me..

now, another thing happen..

when I come to think about it..

WHAT GOOD THAT THESE THINGS BRING TO ME????

But, I cant, even thought of that kind of thinking..

for, if I am grateful, Allah will add His blessing and if I am not, hell fire is really painful..




then, its all come to a conclusion..

"sakit yang ku rasa, biar jadi penawar dosaku"

Sungguh, tak layak ke syurgaMu, tapi tak sanggup ke nerakaMu..
pimpin langkahku Tuhan.. T_T

A special dedication..

By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..

this post is a special dedication to the people who have brought a lot of meaning to my life..

Ma, Pa..

Ya Allah, ampunilah dosaku, dan dosa kedua ibu bapaku, tenangkanlah hati mereka, lapangkan lah dada mereka, permudahkanlah urusan mereka, perkenankanlah permintaan mereka, gembirakanlah mereka selalu, ya Allah..limpahi la rahmat, hidayah dan kasih sayangmu ke atas kedua ibu bapaku, kurniakanlah mereka syurga sebagai ganjaran kasih sayang yang telah mereka berikan kepada kami ya Allah..

Abg2, dan Adik2 ku..

I love you all.. and I always miss the memories that we shared together eversince we were little.. I always remember how Abg Kudin took care of us on the absence of Pa and Ma to work.. I always follow you to your friends' house, playing marbles and you never get angry..

Diba..I always remember we played game at the living room even Ma get angry when we messed the house up..Dik, all the best in your life, I know u can always do better than me..I believe in you!

Apik.. I dont realize how much you have grown up, you are a man now. The last time I saw you, you were taller than me already.. all the best dik, I love you so much..

Dearie Masyitah.. I love you so much, and I miss you so much, your laughter and jokes, you are the apple of my eyes dik, you always complain that you get number two all the time, never mind dik, for me..you are always number one!.,.hope you will grow up to become a great muslimah! insyaAllah..

Its my first day in this 20th age..

ya Allah, semoga dengan bertambahnya umurku,
makin hampir aku padamu..
jangan biar aku jauh darimu ya Allah..

ampunilah dosa2 ku yang silam..
hanya padamu aku berserah..
dan hanya padamu aku bergantung harap..

kasihanilah aku, insan-insan yang ku kasihi, dan insan2 yang mengasihiku..

sungguh, tak layak ke syurgaMu, tapi, tak sanggup ke nerakaMu..

I dont except you to understand..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

I never have any expectation towards you,
so, I wasnt suprise that you dont actually understand..

I forgive you..
because Allah asks me so..
If it is not because of Allah,
I might have get really really upset and angry..

life is temporary anyway..

Hasbi rabbi, jallallah..

Tuhan, kuatkan aku, lindungiku dari putus asa..
jika ku harus mati, pertemukan aku denganmu..

kuatkan aku..
kuatkan aku..
kuatkan aku..

Bantu aku Tuhan..

maafkan aku ummah...

Di medan ini, suara ku mungkin tidak akan di dengari, tenggelam dalm kabut ribut perbalahan.
Di saat ini, aku juga tidak mungkin kelihatan, justeru hilang dalam kabus kelemahan dan kekhilafan.
Maafkan aku ummah. Tak bisa bersamamu saat kau memanggil namaku dengan seruan.
Maafkan aku ummah. Kerana tak kuat menyumbang, meringankan bebanmu..
Maafkan aku ummah, kerana hanya doa yang bisa ku panjatkan, ku iring keyakinan bahawa Allah bersama kita, selagi mana kita ampuh membela agamaNya..
Bicara Murabbi unggul kita; umat Islam di akhir zaman ini jumlahnya ramai, tapi mereka ibarat buih-buih di lautan..
Itu kita ummah. Di ciptakan dalam hati penyakit cintakan dunia dan takutkan kematian. Sedangkan dunia ini sementara sifatnya. Dan mati itu saat pertemuan dengan pencipta. Saat kembali pada tempat asal ruh kita.
Di zaman ini, Allah campakkan dalam hati musuh-musuh Islam, perasaan berani yang membuak. Tidak lagi rasa gementar. Tidak lagi rasa kasihan.
Dan kita ummah, beginilah lagaknya..
Untuk membangunkan ummah dan bersatu, satu cabaran yang harus di galas. Untuk kita mampu mengubah dan mengangkat martabat ummah, harus bermualanya dalam tarbiyah diri. Perkasakan iman, mantapkan jati diri..
Jangan kita jadi buih, datangnya tidak dikesan, perginya tidak disedari.
Ya Allah. Betapa berat ujian yang Kau turunkan kepada Ummah. Ampunilah dosa kami ya Allah. Peliharalah deen Mu ini ya Allah. Bantulah kami untuk mendepani cabaran ini Ya Allah.
Wahai Tuhan. Tanamkanlah keberanian dalam hati-hati kami ya Allah. Berikanlah kekuatan dalam hati pejuang-pejuang agamaMu ya Allah. Andai kami terkorban di jalan ini. Tempatkanlah kami dalam syurgaMu ya Allah.
Ya Allah.. selamatkanlah umat islam, di setiap masa, dan setiap ketika.
Laknat Allah ke atasmu Israel!!.
“dan kami telah tetapkan terhadap bani Israel dalam kitab itu, “kamu pasti akan berbuat kerusakan di bumi ini dua kali dan kamu pasti akan menyombongkan diri dengan kesombongan yang besar” (17:04)
Maafkan aku ummah..
Ya Rasulullah, sesungguhnya..kami merinduimu..

simply my hobby~

In the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..

another hectic days i went through. I have a lot of assignment to complete, apparently, but i made not a really good choice. I want to blog. just take me 3 minutes.

I was thinking that, true, people may not turn out the way we expect them to be. but thats perfectly normal. because, we are not born to please others. we live for ourselves, and to fullfil our responsibility as the khalif of this temporary world.

It is not easy to maintain our emotion. Even Iman has it ups and down. And the anology of Iman's shift is like the bubble in a boiling water. It as fast as that. It is Allah who hold our heart.so, we have to seek refuge under HIS love. we are nothing without HIM. what we have in this world as well, are from him.

Thank You Allah..

hasbi rabbi, jalallah, mafi Qolbi ghairullah..
Allah is enough for me, there is no one in my heart except Allah..

this is the remedy for the soul~

Bittaufiq Wannajah..
Jazakumullahu khairan kathira!