its all about respect, understanding, and love..

dont you ever think that you will be respected, understood and loved if you yourself are unable to show these values towards others..

respected,
everyone need space for his and herself.
respecting others mean, we acknowledge their existence and percieve others as human per se
listen to what they want to say,
and respond whenever it is necessary..
it goes two ways..
i respect you..
you have to respect me as well,
so that..
it will become a mutual relationship..
if any of us made a mistake,,
we should say sorry...

remember..
saying sorry does not stain the pride of a person..
rather, giving forgiveness, portrays the nobility of heart..

on understanding..
its about..

ermm..
u dont really know y people behave in certain way..
but, i hold to one basic principle..
everyone deserves our time and attention..

time can not be given though, but it can be shared,,
understanding is,
you try to compromise, try to empathize others..

on love..
love is contagious..
it is everything that you ever need to be happy..
to be able to make others happy..
love is all about what i mention above..


love cures our pain..
shed our tears..
cheer us up,.
and in fact,,
i often think that,
love makes us stronger..
stronger for ourselves and people that we love and care for..

when you love,
then you will try to understand..

when you understand..it shows that you respect..

are they important?

maybe you can sit, relax and think about the following Q:

who are the most important person in your life?

what is the most important thing in your life?

what is the greatest achievement in your life?

what is the simplest thing in your life, yet gives a really big implication in you?

why do you love your life?

why are you here?

why are you happy? or why are you not happy?

erm.. the answer can be simple, but thinking about all these questions, one might not has the fix or certain response for the Q.
obviousely, the nature of most human being are, we love to take things for granted, it is hard for us to be thankful, there are always thing that beyond our reach yet we really want. there are things that we desire, and things that we already have, but does not seem to give us much effect, hence we tend to neglect, ignore, insensitive, apathy..

no one will get all the thing he or she wants.
satisfaction or happiness in one's soul..
do not rely on the extend of getting everything that comes across our mind..

..God will never change the fate of humans until they themselves change whatever that they have in them..the holy Quran

as for me,,

when i satrt to think, my life start to get better and i am happily dwelling in it, as if nothing bas is gonna happen.. my smiles start to fade,.

i think i am ofeten tested with the people who i spent most of my tyme with, or the person that i am closed to, care for and people that i love..

and it was such a big hit that recently, i heard this bad news about those people i care for, althought the problem affect me as well, but it was not as directly as the effect that they have to bear..
i can cry, or mourn, or, regret or,, dwell with sadness..

but i know,

it will not give me any good..
rather ruins me..
and hurt them(the people i love) more..

so..
i have no choice..

i choose to be strong to be able to protect the people i love..

to be able to keep my head up high,
because..
i have faith in Allah..
He is always there..

my mom once said..
i am too naive(lurus kot)
too innocent..

but,,
i cant help it,
i am afraid that, i will experience culture shock once i emerge from this innocent cacoon..

^_^

but, its no big deal..

i wanna be the most happiest women..
my best fren gave me a book that really inspires me..

so..
i would like to thank them both,

Mohd Alif.. for his book "motivasi menjadi wanita paling bahagia"

Nurfilza..for her book" Siti Khadijah; cinta abadi kekasih nabi"

and..

for kak tiah..
although you never give me any book=p

thank for being a very understanding kakak, friend, pet and ha ha..

Alhamdulillah..

i think i have a weirdo frenzo..huhu

what do u expect?emm...i have a unique and different friend, well, i am not trying to raise an issue or gain publicity or something, i just wana share.. this fren of mine really is a weirdo, y?? because she is weird..she watches movie all day long and after tired of watching she will play computer game, what i am trying to say is, whe does not like.. have any other significant thing to do, in fact she is just too relax.. i think weird fren mathces me coz, i am weird too. what else, ya.. she does not even bother to go out to take her meal, erm.. she rarely is in the mood of eating, she once tole me that, she does not wanna eat, but she has to, that is why, she was sort of forced to take her regular meal. emm..whatelse is there to share, this fren of mine is bachelor earner physcological medication; know why, she is i cna say, she thinks she is pro in certaina area thta she resist to listen to any other people opinion except herself. this fren of mine, laugh over so not funny think, but later, i begin to elarn that laughing was just simply her hobby..huhu..looks like i have to stop now, she is watching me typing,,huhu..daaa

i am expecting a brighter future

hey all..
i learn a lot of things recently,
many of them cover my self-construction esteem..
i often being so paranoid about certain things in life, which make me so afraid to move,
but now i learn that, all those tangible effects are actually natural things in life that you can not just run away. the thing to do if we are trapped in this kind of situation is, be strong and just stand tall, be your own person. dont let the fear keep you down. likewise the genetical engineering that surfaces ambivalence, future is merely a dream. therefore, it is each person responsibility to fight for their dream to sustain a brighter expected future. well, in my life, i found that, there are certain things that inspire me a lot that i am too afraid to lose them. being a preoccupied type of person as i was, i have the tendency to test the water first before i make a move, though it is actually very good, but one thing to notice is, it makes me a little bit passive and sometime i am just too comfortable being in my own territory. i dont want to touch others life likewise i dont want people to teach mine, but really la..if i dun take risk, i wont be able to measure how far i can go, how high i can fly or how flexible i can be., just have faith la.. God talks to us in differnt way, sometime HE teaches us by giving us failure,..so that we become aware that, ultimately...hey! everything is safely under HIS plan and control..so, be thankful of what we have.

why should i give in? again??? did i need to do it again, for the countless time, i am sorry.. i am tired with it and just let time decides it. i dont think it was my fault, so i resist to say sorry to her, maybe she feels the same, she feels that she is not guilty. but when i come to think about it, does she really cares about me? moreover, she changes lately, she is no longer the same. there is somehting behind her eyes, her smile and her words. i can not help this doubt to fade, i feel really inconvinient about it. somehow i feel like, i am nothing in her life that she just dont care, i am here or not.

i hate it when we have fight, but, for god sake, i still love her, as a sister and a friend. it just that, my heart can no longer stand the pain that i bear when she treats me condescendingly, i dont know what i have done that causes her to treat me so different, but i am just tired of it. there is no use to cry, somewhere there, she is not even thinks about this conflict that happens between us, she has changed for the reason that i never know.

confront her?.. i am not so sure about that opinion, i dont know what to say anymore. all these while, it has been a real painful. i dont want to be a crybaby anymore. ok.. i think we should take time to realise about all these, about what we have encountered for so long, u c.. if you are not that close with someone, you will have no reason to fight with her or him, but, since she is my beloved sister and friend...aaa....i should be more patient now..

it just painful!!!

i was busy with my life, a lot of things are happening, and they are mesmerizing, that is the moment where i thought that everything will be just fine, just as proper as what i have been planning for. but it was a momentarily delight, sometime i just hate being so optimistic with the future because the moment i feel so, it will live a bad taste in mouth. it was just painful and it hurts me deeply. i feel collapse and i just hate it, huhu.. feel like i have so much reason to cry to now!

but..
i would not..
by nay chance..
let anyone to plant the seeds of doubt in me..
because..
i am one..
and still i ma one..
i cant do everyhting..
but still i can do something,
and because i cant do everything..
i refuse not to do the things that i can do..


be strong!!!!!!!!!

this sem we are going to have our final exam., and this is the final sem for the foundation year!
i should do my best!
aja2 fighting!!!!

it just painful!!!