why should i give in? again??? did i need to do it again, for the countless time, i am sorry.. i am tired with it and just let time decides it. i dont think it was my fault, so i resist to say sorry to her, maybe she feels the same, she feels that she is not guilty. but when i come to think about it, does she really cares about me? moreover, she changes lately, she is no longer the same. there is somehting behind her eyes, her smile and her words. i can not help this doubt to fade, i feel really inconvinient about it. somehow i feel like, i am nothing in her life that she just dont care, i am here or not.

i hate it when we have fight, but, for god sake, i still love her, as a sister and a friend. it just that, my heart can no longer stand the pain that i bear when she treats me condescendingly, i dont know what i have done that causes her to treat me so different, but i am just tired of it. there is no use to cry, somewhere there, she is not even thinks about this conflict that happens between us, she has changed for the reason that i never know.

confront her?.. i am not so sure about that opinion, i dont know what to say anymore. all these while, it has been a real painful. i dont want to be a crybaby anymore. ok.. i think we should take time to realise about all these, about what we have encountered for so long, u c.. if you are not that close with someone, you will have no reason to fight with her or him, but, since she is my beloved sister and friend...aaa....i should be more patient now..