putus :(

dengan nama ALLAH,
selawat dan salam keatas junjungan besarku Muhammad, sahabt, dan keluarga baginda.


situasi:

alamak! dah lewat! Ja is not joining me to go to the last EDUC lecture today. I am so frustrated that I have to walk alone to the college. But, never mind. that will be fine. 1 thing that motivate me to go to the class is, well.. not because I have a crush on the lecturer (the lecturer is a women anyway), its because.. "conscience"?. there will be not many people attending the lecture, its the last, I feel for Jane, ksian la kan kalo xdak org dtg lecture dia..huhu..hoping, one day.. my students will try to emphatize me too.. insyaALLAH..

another reason? at least, I will not get old too quickly since I do spend duit rakyat wisely, all right? rakyat2 sekalian..thanx for all the cukais:D


when I was getting ready, I reached for my book on the table. I had, incidentally, push away my tasbih and it drop down the table. Something comes to me, a feeling of inconvenient. since my room floor is carpeted, I didn't hear anything.

I bend down and try to get my tasbih back. To my surprise.. The beads spread all over the floor... I pretend not to see what happen to it and make my way to the college.


:(

along the journey, I lamented about what happen to my previous company.

it is special, I get it from a friend. A friend who has helped me a lot and supported me in my tarbiyyah and life in N.Z.

above all, it really. really. has been a while, I didnt use that tasbih :( :( :(

the whole thing was like, a portrayal of my current life. busy with assignment and preparation for exam. These earthly things have deluded me and make me forgot. sometime. that life is short.

it was a reflection of my own self.:(
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going to faraway place today, need to find some refreshment. I need a retreat. If I die today, Allah wont ask me how many A's did I get, or how many money that I able to save.

If I die today, Allah will only ask my amal..which I believe, I havent got enough to win the Jannah.

true, I drop the tasbih and the beads spread all over.
but, let it just be that.

wont let my faith to be scattered all over that way~

insyaALLAH..


NOW:

Ja: jom makan, kalau nak la..
Aini: yeaaaaa...makan dah ke?

Ja: aah..

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tuntun langkahku tuhan~

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