I am in L.O.V.E~

I am in LOVE~

What really makes me fall in love with Tarbiyah(coaching) in Islam, is.. it gives me the peace of heart. it is something really really meaningful that I cant get from any where else. It is the feeling of being safe whenever I am in danger, the feeling of happy when everything inflicts pain, the feeling of pleasure even when something is taken away. It is a really precious gift, that Allah bestowed to his fellow slave..

Alhamdulillah.. thank you Allah for everything!

Tarbiyah comes in all ways, it can be subtle as well as clear..
Tarbiyah comes as a pain, who break you heart and spill your tears
Tarbiah also come as a laughter, that make you rejoice and cheer your day,
Tarbiyah also come in hardship, it add up to your burden and cause you to suffer,
Tarbiyah comes as a wind, you cant see its blowing, but you know its there..
tarbiyah is Allah's love..
presented in a very gentle way.. communicate with the heart, and melt the sin away..
Tarbiyah is a Allah's blessing, to show that He Cares, and He has always been wathing,.
Tarbiyah is everything..
It lightens your day...
It grows in your dream..
It gives you strength and blowing your spirit..


HOWEVER~

To be able to perceive life as a Tarbiyah,
one has to first believe, he or she comes from Allah..
That it is Allah, who creates us, and it is He, who take care over us..
It is he who gave us food, and it was he, who we should return everything to..


and these are not easy, as Imaan (faith) has it ups and down..
there comes the term "mujahadah"(struggle) to get "taqarrub"(close) with Allah..

It is He
who hold humans heart..

we come to the earth, with nothing but a promise to abide him..
and going back to Allah, with 3 (knowledge that we teach, charity that we did, and children that pray for our good) ..

......

semoga ALLah selalu memegang hati2 ini untuk sentiasa teguh di jalanNya..

SUNGGUH, TAK LAYAK KE SYURGA NYA~
TAPI TAK SANGGUP KE NERAKANYA..

..Irhamna Ya Allah, Irhamna Ya Rahim..

..Ottoman Empire..

by the name of Allah the most gracious and the most merciful


It has not been long since this the last empire of Islam vanish on the world. 3rd of March 1924, the date that has to be remembered by all muslims. The Turk Ottoman empire was recognized through its mighty and powerful position during the 13th until late 15th century.

It was in fact, a glorious period for mankind. There has been many changes made during that long period and Muslims country appeared to hold the superior position in the eyes of the world. With the advancement of the technology and sophisticated government, there is no doubt why Ottoman empire lasts for about 666 years.

However, most important of all,it is the human resources that make it possible for any civilization in the world to stand tall in curving it historical moment. Undeniably, prophet Muhammad PBUH has already mentioned that, Constantinople will belong to Muslims by the best leader and army. During the ruling of Sultan Muhammad al-Fatih, the Ottoman Empire being in its highest and glorious position. Istanbul was finally able to be taken by the muslims and then become the 3rd capital of Turk.

My belief about teaching~

Teaching has not been a career of my dream ever since I was little. I always thought that, teaching is a very hard profession and it demands high capability and tremendous commitment. Undeniably, this perception might have also been inflicted due to a number of figures that are still vividly germinated in my mind. They are the tired, old and unmotivated looking teacher that I used to have. Fair enough, I do have several teachers that I look high upon due to their credibility in teaching.



Nonetheless, I always thought that I am not going to become a teacher simply because, I am not capable of it and I don’t have the values required to become a good teacher. However, as soon as I embarked in this course, teaching English as a second language. Something inside me urges me to start thinking on the principle that I am going to adopt and what kind of teacher am I going to become. My belief about teaching is a teacher does not only in charge of the academic development of the fellow students but also their individual, emotional and intellectual growth.



In fact, teachers’ role in promoting healthy and balanced environment to support digestion of learning inside the classroom or curriculum of the home (Walberg and Paik, 1992) is proven to be of paramount importance. My lecturer, used to tell us that a teacher has to become an angelic figure to the children. Meaning to say, we teachers have to be good, behave and possess all the perfect morality that human being are capable of. However, I perceive her notion as unrealistic. This is because, we can never run from the fact that teacher is still a normal human being and fallible being one of teacher’s inevitable values.


Consequently, I came out with my own perception. A teacher, though a normal human being, is a wonderful and unique creature. They learn as they teach and in fact, as Professor Smith mentioned it in his talk with us, in order to become a teacher, one has to always become a learner. Teacher has to always able to comprehend the struggle that is needed to move from the state of not knowing to knowing. Teacher, though a normal human being, has to try, at their very best effort to make the best use of whatever it is that they have.


It is a truth that universally acknowledged that to teach is to touch someone’s life. This is an interactive process whereby, teacher has to also open their life to be touched by the students. This connection enables transmission of knowledge to occur, as children learn best, when they feel connected. Teacher is not an angel, but they are selected people.

Like the barber who possesses an authentic skill that not everyone is able to, like the farmer who acquires the skill of gardening while others are not, teacher is designed by Allah, to talk to heart and nourish the soul.

...what you see, is what you get~...

..By the name of Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful..





I dont really know how to define my day today, it was.. unpredictable..
we were really excited to go for jaulah to Cristchurch with our seniors and akhwat there. we prepared and pack our cloth as early as 6am in the morning. there were actually some conflicts occured before the departure pertaining to the coming back date which was so close to the starting of 2nd half of the semester.. but, after a lot of "discussion and reconsideration" over things..we decided to just go with the flow..

Today was quite an embarrassment..
why?? because, we were running kesana kemari to catch the bus that we thought we had missed.. suddenly, a pakcik that happen to be there (who apparently has been observing our peculiar behavior) told us that the bus was going to come back.. it was a great relief!!... Alhamdulillah.. maklumlah, that was our 1st tym experience using bus in Dunny..

when we were lining op for the bus, unaware of the sad fact that was waiting for us.. the driver, who was a young man(about 25, i think..) called us and said.. there was a problem with the tickets, they are invalid!! what to do! only 2 tix are valid, the seats were full..so other choice, 2 of us have to go first.. so, my beloved Kak T and Ja..appoint themselves, ready for the challenge..huhu~

i said to myself, no worry! there is something that can be done:)
we went to the counter to buy new tix, we paid..and then we discuss again about the journey (weird kan?? we suppose to discuss dlu before we bought the tix).. then, those kakaks said that they have to follow the schedule, consequently, they cant wait for us..it leaves us with 2 option
1. go straight to Neslon(6hrs from CHC)
2. cancel the tix

what came to me was, none of the options were favorable.. whatever la kan..

tired of thinking, stamping feet on the ground, dizzy with the unclear ideas on the future or chance of the journey.. we made our way to Grange st..

:::long story short...:::

we decided to go the next day, fortunately, one of the kakaks, whom our friends seem to be familiar with offer herself to wait for us.. *terharuu*

Alhamdulillah..
by the end of the dark tunnel..there is a light..
there will be ease after pain..

::moral of the story??::

Dear Dar, be in charge with ur own self, ur tix, ur journey, ur life
Dear Dar, please dont get panic easily.. remember, there is nothing better than this path..

last but not least, what u see is what u get..
if i perceive the situation as a problem, obstacles..then it will be so..
on the other hand, its a lesson..a meaningful lesson..

by the end of the day... here we are.. stranded in DUnedin, with nerds who favor library during this cold weather, pakciks and makciks.. the loyal occupant of lonely DUnny.. and our "persada president" who insist that he stayed to accompony Dunedin..(as if Dunedin wants him as a company :p)

rite... lets hope for a better day..insyaAllah^_^

::THE END::

..gembira bermain!!..

huhu..not to brag~ but..I am quite good in ice skating :p
I really like skating, and the first time i step on the icy floor..I skate happily!!


i cant really recall how many times did i fall, but..quite a lot of time actually, and not to forget, with various skills and pattern too..huhu..

my knee, tight, waist, arm and palm hurt~ T_T

it was really exciting though, it just take me a few minutes in the ice skating area to stand on my own and discover what i can do~

I learn something today,
I have to be brave to discover my life, and I will get to know my ability and strength.. I fell several times, I stumble and it was painful.. but thats a price that i have to pay, to gain the skill on how to stand,..again, after i have fallen countless time..

besides, I have to believe in myself,
undeniably, having people, friends around me is really good and I feel safe, However, i wont go anywhere if I just stay in my comfort zone and hesitate to give it a try! I have to be confident..

somewhere in the middle of the icy floor, i felt desperate, sad, nervous and anxious because, there is no one and nothing to hold on..
but, i have to give myself a chance, that i have to let myself try to prove to me, that..it is something that i can take charge of..

~my balance~

huhu~ it was really exciting..thnx kak wani for inviting us ^-^
looking forward to go there again next tym! :)
InsyaAllah..

..mencari sekeping hati..

jangan cuba menjadi orang lain, bila kau tahu..
kau gembira dengan dirimu..

jangan cuba mencari tempat yang lain, bila kau yakin..
disinilah hatimu berada

jangan cuba berlari, bila kau sedar..
inilah waktunya, dan dirimu tidak lagi mampu melangkah..

kerana, biarpun kau jauh dariNya,
dia akan selalu ada untukmu..

^.^

Mutiara kata ini saya ambil dari blog sorang senior~


Andai ombak kuat melanda bahtera, jangan disangka tiada harapan dapat berlabuh dengan selamat. Ingatlah semakin kita diuji, itu tandanya kasih sayang Allah Taala kepada kita dan Allah tidak akan membebankan hamba-Nya melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.

Aku tak berniat untuk menulis banyak banyak pada post kali ini. Hanya sekadar luahan hati yang terasa agak berat. Mudah-mudahan diringankanNya.

Ujian Allah kembali berlabuh, menduga hati yang kerdil ini.
Wahai Tuhan, kurniakanlah hati ini kekuatan, setimpal dengan ujian yang Engkau beri. Kurniakanlah diri ini keteguhan pada iman agar hanya mengharap dan memohon pertolongan dariMu. Agar aku bisa kuat berhadapan dengan dunia untuk akhiratku.


Hidup, takkan pernah sepi dari UJIAN kan? Kerana Allah amat MENYAYANGI kita.. Dia nak kita kembali bermuhasabah, kembali mengingatiNya. Juga sebagai peringatan, agar kita tidak terlalu lalai pada dunia.


Aku rindukan hati yang sentiasa merinduiMu
Aku rindukan jiwa yang sentiasa bergetar mendengar asmaMu
Aku rindukan minda yang sentiasa dahagakan kalimahMu
Aku rindukan lidah yang sentisa basah menyebut zikrullah
Aku rindukan mata yang mengalirkan air mata taubat untukMu
Aku rindu pada fitrah sebenar kejadianku

Aku hanyalah seorang hamba yang mengembara menyelusuri jalan hati
Adakala layarku berlabuh pada destinasi yang benar
Adakalanya pada destinasi yang salah

Wahai Tuhan, andai layarku salah arah
Pimpinlah dan tunjukkanlah padaku, Jalan Hidayah
Yang diselusuri bersama Cahaya Taufiq
Yang diterangi Cahaya Iman
Agar akhirnya pengembaraan aku terhenti
Pada destinasi yang diredhaiMu

Sesungguhnya Allah sentiasa bersama kita
Wallahu'alam